I’m having a ball here right now. Last time I was here was Christmas of 2005 and I cut my trip short because I felt like a fish out of water. If you don’t know me, I’m African-American and practically everyone here is Caucasian, Asian or Middle Eastern. I didn’t have enough tools last time to be social and meet people. Now it’s completely different.
The first night I went to a few bars in Darling Harbor with another community guy from Brisbane. I opened almost all group sets, transitioned into some kino routines and all the girls all loved it. I even hooked a bachelorette set with a joke palm reading routine I made up on the spot. They loved it so much they started taking pictures of me doing this shit!
Ran into Tyler D. and had the pleasure of gaming the same chick.
Later on something odd happend. I got my first 3-way kiss of the year with these 2 girls from the U.S. (I’m going to try to get the picture of it), pulled them back to my hotel with the guy from Brisbane, got them up to the room, got the music going, tried to separate them to get things happening… and they bolted! WTF!
Anyway, we shrugged it off and went out gamming agian. Oh well.
So tonight I realized how much my mindset has changed in the last 1.5 years and that I need to hang with guys who are like-minded.
Tonight I met up with some friends, of a friend, of a friend. While these guys are cool guys and what you would consider alpha, their mindset was infections and fuck up half my night.
I use to walk in to a club, walk around to check out what kind of talent was there, and then wait for something to happen… something to “pop off”. I was so reaction seeking back then. I’d wait for IOIs, stare at girls and see if they’d give me extended eye contact, wait for them to ask me to dance, etc. This is exactly what these 4 guys did tonight and what they do every night when they walk into the club.
I’m not bashing them for their style, it’s just that I have more tools in my toolbox now. It’s my fault for letting this mindset infect me.
Once I stepped away from them a few hours later, collected my thoughts and grabbed my balls, I ended up meeting a really sexy Ausie girl who has been dancing since the second grade and a pre-school teacher who stared me down. (I love teachers. They’re conservative during the day and freaks at night!) I have both of their numbers so we’ll see what happens.
Anyway, I can’t let that shit happen to me again. When it does I feel like shit and I also feel like I’ve wasted my whole f’ing night. Right now so every night is precious.